Update Time!!!!!!

Well if you haven't realized by now I am HORRIBLE at updating this blog... I have always been horrible at journaling even though I wish I could be one of those people that has these amazing journals of their life.  I aspire to be that person, but not sure that will EVER happen! I have so many journals that have a few pages written back to back.. then about a year later there is a page that says, "wow haven't written in here in forever, heres an update of the past year of my life...." but I digress....

Wow! I haven't written in here in forever, here's an update of the past little bit.... haha... but seriously, I know I haven't written a blog in forever! I have been so busy with work, weekends, the cruise I just went on.... all that jazz!

So as of today I have lost 13.2 pounds!! YAY! GO ME!!!! I am so stoked! And SO proud of myself... so what changed????

First, I made this lifestyle change with God helping me... not that he hasn't been there to help me in the past, but this time I sat down and God and I had a little heart to heart.  I told him that I couldn't do this on my own (obviously) and that he was going to have to help me curve my appetite... and he is TOTALLY rockin his side of the deal!

I also have had a TOTAL change in my way of thinking regarding food.  I realized that eating good for 3 or 4 days is NOT good enough... I want this weight off NOW and the only way that is going to happen is if I get hardcore about this and stick to my guns EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I finally got it through this THICK skull of mine that the food I eat is only going to satisfy me for the time being and why should I deny myself an amazing body for a few seconds of pleasure.... whats the point????  And I feel SO proud of myself when I make a good decision...

Prime example... Brandon LOVES iHop... and he asked me Saturday if I wanted to go there for a late breakfast... I agreed but made a decision before I even got there that I was going to get something healthy.  They have a simple and fit menu, so I ordered egg substitues, turkey bacon, and 2 pancakes.. the whole meal was only 400 calories and thanks to the big man upstairs, I was full after about half a plate of food! (Why have I been thinking I needed to eat everything on my plate for the last few years????)

I have also realized that I wont be eating fresh veggies, wheat bread, grilled chicken, etc for every meal for the rest of my life and that it will be a CONSTANT decision to just make a good choice when we eat out (which anyone that knows us knows that we eat out, A LOT!) instead of thinking I have to order the most fattening thing on the menu.  For example, at chick fil a, since I know I am not eating as much, I just get a kids meal with only 4 chicken nuggets instead of 8... and when Brandon wants mexican, I get a couple of tacos or a quesadilla instead of a taco, burrito, rice and beans... Its amazing what just changing your choice will do!

I also have decided to allow myself ONE day where I can eat something that isn't all that great for me and only if I want... yesterday was that day for me... but instead of getting a fast food burger, fries, AND a soda.. I just got the burger and a diet coke... and that totally satisfied me!

I am totally amazed at how fast the weight is coming off... and I am definatley NOT turning back now! I've made it way too far already! My clothes are starting to get loose and I can tell so much in my face that I am loosing weight....

oh and did I mention that I haven't even been going to the gym????  yea, I have been slacking REALLY bad in that area, so I know once I start going the weight is only going to come off faster!! I am pumped about this! You just wait... by summer I'm gonna be rockin a killer body and a oh so cute bikini (which I might add I haven't worn since about 6th grade!).. and I expect EACH one of you to hold me accountable! If you see me slipping, kick my butt!!!

Thanks for letting my share this journey with you... I know its going to change my life forever!!!!